I've felt alone for a while, despite being married, despite being in Bible study, despite being on the worship team, despite being surrounded by people all the time...I could go on and on about the reasons I shouldn't feel alone, but I do. I also feel like I've been walking in a valley for a long time. My shoes are worn out, my feet are tired, and I don't know how to keep going forward - only that I have to.
On top of all the "feelings," I just found out that I have Hashimoto's Syndrome, an autoimmune disease that could eventually destroy my thyroid. Great...my diabetes is in check but now I have this, too? Really? My husband is still looking for a job, after months and months of applications, interviews, and searching. Really? We just put our house on the market, despite trying to modify the loan for the past 15 months. Really? Yeah, really.
While none of these things have happened all at once, it can be pretty overwhelming. My source of comfort through all this is that God knows exactly what is going on and what I need in the midst of trials. I know from His Word that He won't just release me from these things because I want to be in a happier/better/not-so-depressing state. God doesn't normally work that way. BUT He gives me the hope of knowing He is there in the midst of it all, pulling me up and encouraging me.
I love this Meredith Andrews' song. Whenever I hear it, I feel better...I'm not alone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8FXLo3aCkuQ
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